I'm gonna run on and see what the ends gonna be...

There is nothing left to do but keep pushing. I've been looking for a full time job in the new city that I'm in for 6 months. I won't even think about the 16 months I spent desiring a job or a better job where I used to live or even the 6 months before then when I was unemployed.


This storm is particularly discouraging because it is causing me to lose faith in myself and question my worth (ie. "maybe I'm not good enough", "does God not want me to be happy" etc.)

It's even more discouraging because I am not alone and I see my brothers and sisters in Christ becoming more and more despondent to His promises.

I am now at the point where I know God is there, and I know that He will do it, I don't know why He hasn't done it and I don't care because all I want is for Him to do it now!

Who cares why things happen. God is in control and it is a part of His plan. I don't need to know why it seems like God may not make a way for me to do the things that I desire (like work full-time!). For all I know it could be to bring Him more glory when He comes through in the nick of time or for me to learn how to trust and obey in spite of it all.

Either way this storm is stretching me to the point of discomfort. I want to sow more in to the kingdom and travel and have the funds to do things, good things.

I can list dozens of reasons why I believe I should be working more, why I am applying for these jobs etc. but until God does it I am left feeling like it is all in vain. I am now asking God to show Himself in my life.

Ps. 42 says "how long will they ask where is your God?" and that is my question to God. I am the closest some people get to Jesus and how does it look that I worship, fellowship, fast and tithe all in faith and still do not have what I have desired and asked for in prayer? Is He trying to make me stop caring about what people think or say or even maybe He wants me to draw even closer to Him. The more I am out of work the more hard it becomes to have that peace that surpasses understanding.

Oh, how my heart is heavy and my spirit is overwhelmed. I know He is there but I can't feel Him. If it's me I ask for Him to change that. I haven't been able to say a thank you from my spirit for His goodness in a long while.

I need Him now

..::MY GOD IS SO GOOD THAT'S WHY I WORSHIP HIM::..

I've been away from this site for a minute but my relationship with God has persevered. There is nothing that my God cannot do....

I was down a lot towards the end of the last year but even though my miracle hasn't come yet, I still will rejoice. I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my saviour (Jesus)-Hab 3:19.

I did a 20 day fast for clarity, I finished reading the entire bible and I found a church that feeds me in the city that I moved to.

I have to say that God is good. And now that I have become more independent, I have become more dependent on God. He shall supply all of my needs.

Is there anything that God can do? Yes. He can't and will not fail.

Amen saints and and be vigilant and prayerful in 2009 and take what the devil has stolen from you. This is my year of restoration (Joel 2:25-26) and in Jesus' name I receive all that was stolen from me (or that I let get away) and I receive it in tenfolds. AMEN.

Inspiration and Encuragement Comes from Everywhere

Don't mind the messenger, mind the message. B. Scott spoke to me and could be speaking to you too.

It happens around the half way point... click the link to get there because I can't figure out how to get the volume on this!

a great forward...

God has it under control!

"DO NOT GET WORKED UP…GOD WILL HELP YOU DEAL WITH WHATEVER HARD THINGS COME UP…" MATTHEW 6:34 (TM)

Fear is just a ‘grown-up’ version of worry! If you let one in, the other comes with it. Stop and take inventory; of the things you worried about last year, or even last week, how many came to pass? And how many did you change by worrying? And did worrying make them better or worse? And what about the physical and emotional toll it is taking on you?

And what does your worrying say to those who know you are a follower of Christ? ‘What can I do?’ you ask. You will only stop worrying about tomorrow, when you learn to place it in the hands of the One who holds all our tomorrows.

Listen: ‘Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and He will help you’ (Psalm 37:5 NLT). By committing each day to the Lord, you are trusting Him to go before you and work things out in your favour. It is amazing what you accomplish when you live, trusting God a day at a time.

Have a Blessed Weekend All!

the begining of my testimony...

A Long Time Coming but It Came...

After returning from a two year trip to London, England I decided to become a writer. I made up my mind to pursue the one thing that I've loved doing since I was young (I began writing my first book when I was 12).

It took a lot of work and a LOT of applications (and prayers!) but I finally got a position as a writer for AMOI Magazine. This month's issue features not just one article by me, but four and my book section contributions. Some of you guys might know that AMOI asked me to become their Book Section Editor and this was even before I began working in the publishing industry (I've been working full-time for a book publishing company for two months now).

Long story short: God is Great and worthy to be praised! Amen

You all (in Canada) need to go out and get this issue of AMOI! Available everywhere...Shoppers Drugmart, Zellers, Walmart, Chapters...

and God willing I will have some more big news regarding my writing before the end of 2008

Stay Blessed and Remember to Chase Your Dreams..not the money!

Employing Patience

We know the promises but it's so hard to believe them.

Consider the following dialogue between my spiritual being and my human being:

• All things work together for good
• So then why am I working somewhere that doesn't use all my talents and that I hate?
• For God's glory
• How does God get glory from me suffering
• In His time your mourning will turn to gladness
• Why is His timing so delayed, I'm suffering now
• Count it all joy when you fall into various trials
• Why, Why me, Why now, Why?
• The testing of your faith produces patience
• So?
• Let patience have its work so that you will be mature and complete, LACKING NOTHING (James 1)

We all talk to ourselves but when we are in turn with the holy spirit our spiritual being alway prevails and we are persevere.

Patience is the key to us getting all that we desire in the will of the Lord. Remember the reason for which you go through something may not be known to you, but He knows and it will alway be for your good and His Glory.

If only...

I always feel rushed to pray and spend time with God in the morning but yet I alway find time for breakfast and to make my lunch for work (because I don't want to waste money).

Why couldn't I look at my time with God as neccessary as the food I put in my body? If only i regarded my time with God as important as my breakfast.

That will be my new resolution. I'm fasting today and it's my first fast this month. Beginning tomorrow I resolve to spend quality time in prayer each day just like I spend time eating.

It will be difficult but food for my soul is way more important than food for my body.

Stay blessed and may God bless you and yours abundantly in the new approaching month and for the rest of your life!