Hello Saints,
I'm still in pursuit of that full time job in communications but I've just completed a 8 day fast so I am certain that God is going to do it for me. What makes this so bad though is that I let go of my part-time job so I got nada! I am depending on the goodness of God.
I had a thought this morning at Early Morning Prayer and Pentecostal Tabernacle of B.C (Burnaby, BC): When people ask me how's the job search going it's not "I've heard nothing and I've prayed," it's "I've heard nothing BUT I've prayed." AMEN.
I said in faith that that job is coming, the door is open, the wall has been torn down.
For now I worship, write, workout and wait on His goodness to prevail.
This morning I was tormented. I wanted to sleep in but at a point I couldn't and went to church to pray. Being without work is more than worrying about bills its the fact that I wake up in the morning not knowing what I should do! No structure. I wake up upset that I'm still here: not working and seemingly not having my prayers answered. It's a harsh feeling but I've left all of that at the altar this morning. I have let go of the sorrow and have replaced it with gladness. I have let go of the past failures and have decided to be content within my current situation...because I will be coming out soon!
So there you have it folks...my declaration...I hope to be writing my testimony here soon too!
Also Pentab is currently in fast and prayers for God to allow us to come up with 2 million in 6 months for the building fund. That's big. My commitment is for 2000 by December. Considering that I'm not working and racked up some debt on my AMEX that's a big deal. That's stepping out in faith. I mean God said He'll never leave nor forsake me. If I'm not working but have bills to pay and gifts to give is He not going to come through? I'm giving in faith. In my spirit I know He'll do it. Sometimes I think though that He hasn't done it since I started going to Pentab and early morning prayers in March. But that's why I let go of the past this morning! I need to exercise faith. I am walking in covenant. He has made away for me to go to Jamaica and England this year and with His help Miami in October will happen too!
God comfort me and keep in Your shadows. Keep me in perfect peace.
About to listen to 102.5 Praise's worship at one!
