I know who holds tomorrow...

So after my last post, on the 30th, I got a offer a temporary position starting the next day. It pays double what I was making before and doesn't involve interaction with customers (a feature I like a lot).

I truly believe that if I didn't keep seeking Him, ie. waking up in the morning of the 29th and 30th to go to church and pray, this offer would have never come. Also if I never let go of my former job, where I was not satisfied, I wouldn't have allowed God to be true in my life.

It's called stepping out in faith. I have done a lot this year by His grace: visited Jamaica, Toronto and London, been living on my own for almost a year have lost some more weight too. God has seen me through it all.

And all I want is to have strong testimony for Him and I am sure that I will!

Thank You Jesus

The Lord Will Perfect That Which Concerns Me

Hello Saints,

I'm still in pursuit of that full time job in communications but I've just completed a 8 day fast so I am certain that God is going to do it for me. What makes this so bad though is that I let go of my part-time job so I got nada! I am depending on the goodness of God.

I had a thought this morning at Early Morning Prayer and Pentecostal Tabernacle of B.C (Burnaby, BC): When people ask me how's the job search going it's not "I've heard nothing and I've prayed," it's "I've heard nothing BUT I've prayed." AMEN.

I said in faith that that job is coming, the door is open, the wall has been torn down.

For now I worship, write, workout and wait on His goodness to prevail.

This morning I was tormented. I wanted to sleep in but at a point I couldn't and went to church to pray. Being without work is more than worrying about bills its the fact that I wake up in the morning not knowing what I should do! No structure. I wake up upset that I'm still here: not working and seemingly not having my prayers answered. It's a harsh feeling but I've left all of that at the altar this morning. I have let go of the sorrow and have replaced it with gladness. I have let go of the past failures and have decided to be content within my current situation...because I will be coming out soon!

So there you have it folks...my declaration...I hope to be writing my testimony here soon too!

Also Pentab is currently in fast and prayers for God to allow us to come up with 2 million in 6 months for the building fund. That's big. My commitment is for 2000 by December. Considering that I'm not working and racked up some debt on my AMEX that's a big deal. That's stepping out in faith. I mean God said He'll never leave nor forsake me. If I'm not working but have bills to pay and gifts to give is He not going to come through? I'm giving in faith. In my spirit I know He'll do it. Sometimes I think though that He hasn't done it since I started going to Pentab and early morning prayers in March. But that's why I let go of the past this morning! I need to exercise faith. I am walking in covenant. He has made away for me to go to Jamaica and England this year and with His help Miami in October will happen too!

God comfort me and keep in Your shadows. Keep me in perfect peace.

About to listen to 102.5 Praise's worship at one!

HE WILL SUPPLY ALL MY NEEDS

I'm still going through...

Yes I have a great roof over my head, I'm healthy, I work but I don' t have what I've been searching for. I've been seeking a full time job in communications all year...I've been searching for a full-time job with good pay for even longer. But yet I have not found.

I still hold on to the fact that His word says He shall supply all my needs (Phil 4:19). His word says if I seek I shall find, ask and I will receive, ask and it will be given unto ME.

I remember in November when I was coming home from a shift at my part time retail job I decided to stop at a grocery store and treat myself. I had $5 on me and I bought a marked down salad and a frozen dinner. I was happy. I came home listening to Kirk Franklin's He Will Supply from his The Fight of My Life Album. As I turned the key to my apartment I was absorbing the lyrics. I knew that God would make a way for me to pay rent and support myself off my meager wages. The second I opened the door, with the song still blaring in my ears I found out I was robbed. Just moments before I came in, someone made off with what little I had; laptop, camera, glasses, sewing kit and my wallet.

What did I do? With in seconds I dropped to my knees and prayed. I don't know what I said but I'm sure the spirit interceded on my behalf.

That was November 27, 2008 and I still here now. I've almost officially replaced everything the enemy literally stole from me except for my prescription glasses. And God has done all of that for me without me working that full-time job that I wanted. Now, I have a lot of expenses coming up but I won't fear. I will only believe (Mark 5:36). My God is great and he shall supply all of my needs according to His riches and glory in Christ.

It is well

I'm gonna run on and see what the ends gonna be...

There is nothing left to do but keep pushing. I've been looking for a full time job in the new city that I'm in for 6 months. I won't even think about the 16 months I spent desiring a job or a better job where I used to live or even the 6 months before then when I was unemployed.


This storm is particularly discouraging because it is causing me to lose faith in myself and question my worth (ie. "maybe I'm not good enough", "does God not want me to be happy" etc.)

It's even more discouraging because I am not alone and I see my brothers and sisters in Christ becoming more and more despondent to His promises.

I am now at the point where I know God is there, and I know that He will do it, I don't know why He hasn't done it and I don't care because all I want is for Him to do it now!

Who cares why things happen. God is in control and it is a part of His plan. I don't need to know why it seems like God may not make a way for me to do the things that I desire (like work full-time!). For all I know it could be to bring Him more glory when He comes through in the nick of time or for me to learn how to trust and obey in spite of it all.

Either way this storm is stretching me to the point of discomfort. I want to sow more in to the kingdom and travel and have the funds to do things, good things.

I can list dozens of reasons why I believe I should be working more, why I am applying for these jobs etc. but until God does it I am left feeling like it is all in vain. I am now asking God to show Himself in my life.

Ps. 42 says "how long will they ask where is your God?" and that is my question to God. I am the closest some people get to Jesus and how does it look that I worship, fellowship, fast and tithe all in faith and still do not have what I have desired and asked for in prayer? Is He trying to make me stop caring about what people think or say or even maybe He wants me to draw even closer to Him. The more I am out of work the more hard it becomes to have that peace that surpasses understanding.

Oh, how my heart is heavy and my spirit is overwhelmed. I know He is there but I can't feel Him. If it's me I ask for Him to change that. I haven't been able to say a thank you from my spirit for His goodness in a long while.

I need Him now

..::MY GOD IS SO GOOD THAT'S WHY I WORSHIP HIM::..

I've been away from this site for a minute but my relationship with God has persevered. There is nothing that my God cannot do....

I was down a lot towards the end of the last year but even though my miracle hasn't come yet, I still will rejoice. I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my saviour (Jesus)-Hab 3:19.

I did a 20 day fast for clarity, I finished reading the entire bible and I found a church that feeds me in the city that I moved to.

I have to say that God is good. And now that I have become more independent, I have become more dependent on God. He shall supply all of my needs.

Is there anything that God can do? Yes. He can't and will not fail.

Amen saints and and be vigilant and prayerful in 2009 and take what the devil has stolen from you. This is my year of restoration (Joel 2:25-26) and in Jesus' name I receive all that was stolen from me (or that I let get away) and I receive it in tenfolds. AMEN.

Inspiration and Encuragement Comes from Everywhere

Don't mind the messenger, mind the message. B. Scott spoke to me and could be speaking to you too.

It happens around the half way point... click the link to get there because I can't figure out how to get the volume on this!

a great forward...

God has it under control!

"DO NOT GET WORKED UP…GOD WILL HELP YOU DEAL WITH WHATEVER HARD THINGS COME UP…" MATTHEW 6:34 (TM)

Fear is just a ‘grown-up’ version of worry! If you let one in, the other comes with it. Stop and take inventory; of the things you worried about last year, or even last week, how many came to pass? And how many did you change by worrying? And did worrying make them better or worse? And what about the physical and emotional toll it is taking on you?

And what does your worrying say to those who know you are a follower of Christ? ‘What can I do?’ you ask. You will only stop worrying about tomorrow, when you learn to place it in the hands of the One who holds all our tomorrows.

Listen: ‘Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and He will help you’ (Psalm 37:5 NLT). By committing each day to the Lord, you are trusting Him to go before you and work things out in your favour. It is amazing what you accomplish when you live, trusting God a day at a time.

Have a Blessed Weekend All!