It's Me Again Lord, As I Fall on My Knees to Pray

I can't believe it's been so long since I wrote here.

I didn't work for 3 whole months. It was hard. The days got darker and I was still not working. The odd temp job here and there but no calls for interviews - but then it happened. God brought me my "dream job".

Now I am facing fire of another sort. My performance at work isn't "satisfactory". It is challenging my esteem. Because of this, I am going to declare a fast. At least five days. I need to regain my drive and put focus back on God.

Testimony: Comfort for the jobless

I'm watching Living Single reruns on Youtube and some random movies online. I've been off for a week. I've gotten some things done but on Friday, my fifth day off, I did nothing. I temped for a day and a half during that week but on Friday while fasting I just watched T.V. online while in bed and T.V. in the living room. Then there was revival at church. I forced myself to renew my spirit and my thoughts about being off. It's messed up because only being away from work (a permanent position) for a week and already people are grouping me into the hopeless and jobless category.

But I have faith and proof that God can do it and will do it for me again. I had a wonderful three month position making $21/hr. Is there anything God can't do?

So I am not counting myself amongst those who have lost hope. I know I will be working again, soon.

The thing is that I don't know how to articulate my faith to my friends who are in the same position.

I am writing out right here some tips on how to not go mental while job searching.

• Have Faith-pray to God for strength to be patient and know that your position is on the way
• Know your worth-write out what you want and what you deserve
• Do activities you like daily- ie. watch a show
• Be diligent- everyday, only for an hour or so, look/apply for jobs
• Assess- look at your progress daily, weekly and ask where do I want to be and how do I get there
• Constantly look for new leads- stalk out the places you want to work for
  

I had a lot more to say when I first starting writing this but I think those points summarized what I've learned.

the ship is going through the storm...AGAIN

I wish it was all over. Technically it is. If I have faith it is. I off from my wonderful job. My position got cut short. I got caught up in the fact that someone there said I would be there for at least three months. I started doing my budget and planning my shopping trip. I gave thanks to God and wrote out my testimony and splat. It all came crashing down. I got 24 hours notice and then I was unemployed again.

I have nothing but faith that I will be working again by the end of the week if not sooner. This has happened before so I need to just trust Him. Today I have errands to run so I'm grateful for a business day off. and I'll wait for my position to come.

Amen

Faith in God and Prayer is all it takes...

so keep on running!

I added a quote from former POW, General Robbie Risner, to the side bar. When asked how he survived over seven years in a Vietnamese prison camp he said it was prayer. Others even said that his faith and optimism is what got them through.

What a testimony. I have a friend whose testimony is the boldest example of God's power in my life. She is a product of a single mother who was also the product of single mother, grew up on welfare and also was sexually abused for a number of years in her childhood. All of that has occurred in her life and she still was able to break the cycle of kids out of wedlock, become a university graduate and an outstanding woman of God. And when you ask her how did she get over the molestation or any of the bad things what does she say? God. Nothing more and nothing less. That reminds me of His awesome power time and time again.

So when people see me in Church 24-7 they truly don't know why I'm there. They (even Christians) might think it's weird that I over church or fellowship so much but I look at it this way:

• They don't know what God has done for me
• They don't know how much I need from God
• They truly must not know the power of the God we serve-it is my duty and honour to layout before Him

It's hard to explain how much my soul and heart yearn to be around Him. Everything I have and everything I do is because of Him. Everyday that He gives me to work or gallivant is a blessing. How can I repay the being who has done all these things for me? I can't. So I spend time with Him, in his presence, thanking Him. That's all I can do.

The best thing about it is that the more I answer to His call and am obedient and faithful the more faithful He is towards me.

I told my friend yesterday before prayer meeting that "I can't just be giving out my prayers to anyone: I'm on fire. Everything I've prayed for I've been getting!" Thank God that prayer is free! Or else I'd really be as selfish as the joke I made.

I prayed for God to send me a job by August 1 and He did...a great paying one! and I prayed for a cheap ticket to Toronto, the day before I had to be there, and He did it. I prayed for Him to find a heart for my Dad's transplant and for me to hear back from my employers for another contract by August 28 and while my Dad's heart hasn't come yet my contract did...at even more pay. While a new heart for dad would have been better than a job, I know that God has a plan.

This whole year I've spent worrying and praying for God to make a way for me to participate in 3 weddings in 3 different countries and He did it! I had no full-time job but he made a way! And now I have an awesome testimony! Staying in His presence is what strengthened me and brought me through.

Read Isaiah 55 and be encourage!

¹ "Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.

² Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.

I know who holds tomorrow...

So after my last post, on the 30th, I got a offer a temporary position starting the next day. It pays double what I was making before and doesn't involve interaction with customers (a feature I like a lot).

I truly believe that if I didn't keep seeking Him, ie. waking up in the morning of the 29th and 30th to go to church and pray, this offer would have never come. Also if I never let go of my former job, where I was not satisfied, I wouldn't have allowed God to be true in my life.

It's called stepping out in faith. I have done a lot this year by His grace: visited Jamaica, Toronto and London, been living on my own for almost a year have lost some more weight too. God has seen me through it all.

And all I want is to have strong testimony for Him and I am sure that I will!

Thank You Jesus

the begining of my testimony...

A Long Time Coming but It Came...

After returning from a two year trip to London, England I decided to become a writer. I made up my mind to pursue the one thing that I've loved doing since I was young (I began writing my first book when I was 12).

It took a lot of work and a LOT of applications (and prayers!) but I finally got a position as a writer for AMOI Magazine. This month's issue features not just one article by me, but four and my book section contributions. Some of you guys might know that AMOI asked me to become their Book Section Editor and this was even before I began working in the publishing industry (I've been working full-time for a book publishing company for two months now).

Long story short: God is Great and worthy to be praised! Amen

You all (in Canada) need to go out and get this issue of AMOI! Available everywhere...Shoppers Drugmart, Zellers, Walmart, Chapters...

and God willing I will have some more big news regarding my writing before the end of 2008

Stay Blessed and Remember to Chase Your Dreams..not the money!

Testimony Time

I prayed and He delivered

I did a week long fast in January and since then I have done about half a dozen fasts. After the first week I was upset. Surely, I thought, during my one week of fasting God's great blessings would come down on me. I finished fasting the Saturday at sunset, went to church the next day and woke up on Monday depressed as anything. No miracle.

But then, at around 10am I received an email. I got a writing assignment from a magazine I applied to write for.

Since then the blessings have come in slowly but surely. Obviously there are the big ones like health and live, no accident etc. but the ones that I have prayed for are coming.

The best thing since I became more dedicated with Him, through prayer, devotion (bible reading), fasting and fellowship, He has smiled on me in great ways and I know more blessings are to come.

"He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him" - Hebrew 11.6

stay blessed,

m